So I had my 36th week doctor appointment last Tuesday, which was going to be a fun one cause she needed to test me for Strep B. Something that I was hoping I wouldn’t have since my sister has had it with all 3 of her kids and had to have antibiotics pumped in her while going through labor. Just a simple pelvic exam with a cotton swab. Then she decided to check my cervix to see if I was dilated. YUP! She quickly said she thought I was going to go into labor anytime between now and the next couple of weeks because I was already 3cm dilated and 70% effaced. That kind of freaked me out because here I was 36 weeks and like 5 days and totally not ready to hear that yet! Yes, I am excited that we get to meet our little bundle of joy soon but I want her to cook a little longer, but I guess when she’s ready, she’s ready and there’s no stopping it.
I am now 37 weeks and 4 days and no baby yet which is okay with me. I have my next doctor appointment tomorrow and I guess we’ll see if I have progressed anymore than I already have. My biggest worry is that she’ll be telling me to go next door to the hospital to get started since I’ve progressed a lot. I haven’t really had any labor pains or Braxton hicks that much. I did have a bunch of non stop cramping yesterday, which I hear is the cervix thinning or something. Not sure.
I have been having really bad anxiety this past week ever since she told me that it could be any time. Like what if I don’t know I am actually in labor until I am already at the 3rd and final stage of labor. I want to be able to make it to the hospital and get an epidural if I absolutely need it. Like I am I really going to be able to handle being a new parent? Things that every new mom probably thinks about, so I’ve tried to calm it down a little bit and just go with the flow. Having anxiety about labor and what’s to come will only make it worse in the long run so I gotta turn it down a notch with my worries.
Good thing is though, I am Strep B negative, but my sister says that can change from now until birth. So weird and terrifying! Don’t read horror stories about it, trust me.
So in the midst of all of this stress I’ve been putting on myself, I decided I needed a spa day with my siblings and best friend, so we went to Lavish Nails and got a pedicure. I could have used a 2 hour foot/leg massage but what we got was good enough and my fat sausage link toes looked cute, or as cute as they could look with how swollen they are.
Until tomorrow for the next update…